Week 2

Another successful week.... Not craving as much as I did during the first week...

Went out last night- it was so much fun- felt my esteem had risen since the last time I had gone out...

Went to a braai with friends, who were down from JHB, managed to stay on track with the diet- took a lot of will power but we did it:):):)

Next week is weigh in and I'm a bit nervous to see the results- my biggest fear is that I didn't loose, which is impossible considering I haven't gone off track but there's still that anxiety lurking in my head:):)

Have an awesome week and remember live life and you'll love life:)

Phat Gurl 002
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Reality Hit

After watching Ruby today it got me wondering why I eat to comfort myself....

I think that a major problem that I have is with myself... I don't think that I think I'm worthy.... No one will like me because I'm not pretty, I don't hav a stunning body- what's there for anyone to love? What would attract a guy to me??

I realised today when talking to my best guy friend that for anyone to love and appreciate me- I need to love and appreciate myself....

This is the whole point I started this diet because as my body changes so will my view of myself change..

Its one thing I need to conquer- I need to have my confidence back and I'm ready for it!!!!

Keep strong
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Week 1

This week went surprisingly well, managed to not cheat as much as I thought I was going to have done.

We had first arranged to go to gym very early in the morning but with our work loads we decided that we won't be able to fit it in.

I'v just decided that I can only do as much as I can in the day that I'm given, and college comes first. For college all my work is assignment and project based which means I have to work dam hard on each and everyone because I'm not going to have a written test that could up my marks.

My friends get really mad with me sometimes when I tell them I can't go out and stuff with them because of either work or money- but in reality, there really is no way I would be coping with the work load if I didn't have weekends to do projects, so luckily I quit when I did or I would be a nervous wreck by now... Hahahaha.

I'm pretty sure they understand and I can understand why they'd get upset or angry with me- but college work has to come first, especially this year.

I really am enjoying my course and I would hate it if at the end of the year I was told I could not complete my Diploma- so I'm sorry friends but I'm fighting for a diploma right now, I'm sure you all understand...:):)

Well that's week 1, done and dusted:)

Keep safe and happy:)
Phat Gurl 002
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week 1 done.. week 2 just begun:)

so week1 mmmm i cheated a bit oops:( but i do believed now that i cheated and know how horrible i feel afterwards becuz im just wasting my own time as theres no point in gyming and then cheating so even though i didnt do everything i wanted to this week ive done alot and already feel better about myself..:) this weeek is brand new and im focused on stickig to the diet one day at a time between college, work, friends, family, exams, friends birthdays, gyming and still trying to find some time to relax is a bit of a strugle but you know what there are 24 hours in a day and one can only do what you can do..
life is what you make it and i want to be that confident girl that peole just admire beacuse shes more than just the fat funny pretty girl but the one that you can date and fall in love with and have kids with and share your family with.. i really miss just having that other life with that person you share absoluty everything with.. but you have to learn to love everything about yourself before anyone can love you in the way you want them too..
life is anything but a movie you cant pause rewind fast forward or edit out moments but the script is yours to write, the places are yours to visit and  the final happily ever after is in your hands so lets do this loosing weight thing so my life can just be complete:):)
loveyou all phat gurl001

men!!

okay so theres two boys in my life who i just am head over heels in love with but they boh live far away from me but i get to see them once every 3 months when they come on holiday so they will come ill try get over them and then they just visit again:( they are awesome friends and i wouldnt swop them for the world but what bothers me is if i wsnt fat they would be more than just my friend... thats the thing that i get irritated and hurt by because guy after guy after guy has told me or one of my friends how pretty i am and if it wasnt for my weight they would be with me..

i ncant wait to just loose this weight cuz all those guys will then want me and as a strong independent women ill tell them where to go fly a kite beacause if you dont love all of me then yu cant have any of me... thats just my motto:)
diets going pretty well and excercised everyday of the week in one form or another so really proud of me and my bestest friend:)
untl next time phatgirl001 is out:)

Forti Nihil Difficilius

"Nothing is too difficult for the brave"
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Blame it on no one

**EVERYONE HAS INSECURITIES**

No one person on planet earth loves absolutely everything about themselves, that's no lie, although people can alter many things now days, like noses, bums, stomachs and ears- the easiest and most pain free way is to embrace what you have cause the person walking down the road towards you might just be wishing they had a nose like yours;)

Love yourself and others will love you

Lotsa love
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My Intro as Phat Gurl 002

Ok so here's my story....

All my life my weight has been an issue, not only to me but to my mom too... She was always putting me on diets and telling me I needed to loose weight, so ever since about grade 6 I've just about been on any and Every diet out there and usually I'd fall off the wagon when my mom would tell me to not eat that and eat that- the problem was that what I had planned to eat was not forbidden, so I guess you could say that I rebelled.... Something that I'm sure is not foreign to any teenager....

I'm now 19yrs old and my ever long quest to be thin has to be faced cause if i can't do it now I never can...

My biggest insecurity is my face, I never feel pretty or even close to it... When me and my friends go out I feel like the black sheep, the ugly duckling- nothing like cinderella!!! I never felt like that before I met my ex boyfriend.... He told me I was fat and ugly- not to my face but to my friend who then told me... Considering he dated me twice- you'd think that I knew that, that obviously wasn't true cause of the pure fact that he dated me twice...

Ever since then I lost all confidence in myself and this blog was created so that as well as showing you my struggle to loose weight it will also show how I WILL gain back the self esteem I once had and enjoy life like I should be....

This blog is a shared blog between me and my best friend- we met 8 years ago and ever since we've tried to do all that we can to loose weight, so by creating this blog we want u to see that anything is possible:):)

With lots of love
Phat Gurl 002
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my intro as phatgurl001

hey everyone:) its phat gurl 001 that will be my name throughout this journey...
im 19 years old and weigh 124.3kgs which is exactly the reason for me starting this blog with my best friend:)
i love life and i atually love my body too but i feel as though im not living to my full potential.. which is why i want to lose 55kgs if not more to be at a healthy weight of about 70kgs.

ive never been the skinny girl but ive always had loads of friends and have a great family so my life so far has been pretty good in those departments.. but in the guys department well not so much.. ive had one boyfriend and kissed a few guys but never anything serious and i blaime that soley on my weight..
im so sick and tired of people telling me you so pretty but... your just such a good friend i dont want to be your friend i want to DATE YOU LOL

so its now the 2nd daY of diet and excersise going pretty well just frustrated becuz healthy food is so much more expensive and lets be honest just not as nice as unhealthy food but i will persivere and push forward!!!\

stuff the haters! stuff the trainer! me and my bestie will do this together:) love ya phat gurl002:)

chat soooon all you beautiful people:)